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Thursday, September 18, 2008
Friday, August 8, 2008
life itself..
hehe rmb tis??
i wud like to start tis post by saeing thank you to all.. Friends, family and teachers..
Teachers thank u 4 being a great guide to us duing tis times of our lives which is assignment week. Thank u 4 extending date lines.. Thank u 4 understanding tat we, i mean me, a bunch of lazy last minute people.. We really appreciate it...
next is to my parents..thank mum, dad n sis... thx dad sending me to and fro school...i noe i will alwaes b late to reach down, but i hope u r nt angry..sorry 4 waiting 4 me to finish sch n so on... mum thx 4 waking me up in morning eventhough u r tired..thx u 4 cooking breakfast in e morning n packing it 4 me..thx 4 letting me sleep in ur lap n messaging me wen i am tired... thx sis 4 letting me use ur camera.. i noe u nid it more cuz its urs..thx 4 being understanding... thx family...
last bt not least...my friends...thx u 4 being der..i noe u all noe wat i am feeling now..wif assignment due tis week n presentation 4 tis month..i love u gals so much.. i dun noe wat i am gng to do if der was no one to stay back wif me after school to do work.. i dun noe if i can take it if ders no one to do late hand in of assignment together..thx u 4 concerning abt me.. hx 4 everything..i really thx god 4 making me meet wif a great bunch of friends.. i noe eventhough i can b a nuisance sumtims, actuali everytime, lol... kay thx u... i wish 4 no one to get separated nxt semester n hope we will alwaes b friends till e end... n if i dun recognise u gals in e future i wanna apologise in advanced.. hehe :)
{to dian dun 4get our promise..}
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nutting to wori abt...
Tuesday, July 29, 2008
Short-term n Long-term
Yesterdae sumting struck to me in an instant. I was on e wae home abt 6pm. I was on top part of e 168 double-decker bus. As the bus move on to e express-wae (if I am nt wrong shud b SLE)...
well my thots wen e bus was passing der was tat i realize tat my destination is very far.. all i can see is tat it was still very far..n sumhw i am not doing aniting to it..i didn't try.. i just waited..argh!! den i thot back abt my last leadership class wer e teacher told us abt short n long term goals.. n sudden notice all my goals in life is long-term n mayb becuz of tat i am still waiting 4 e result of my goals..it juz damn too long for me to wait n i am an impatient person... i want my result now.. so mayb how i planned my goals shud b changed n nt juz dependent on my long term goals.. okie so below is my short-term goals, in short i mean in this month, July- August goals...
My SHORT term goals:
well my thots wen e bus was passing der was tat i realize tat my destination is very far.. all i can see is tat it was still very far..n sumhw i am not doing aniting to it..i didn't try.. i just waited..argh!! den i thot back abt my last leadership class wer e teacher told us abt short n long term goals.. n sudden notice all my goals in life is long-term n mayb becuz of tat i am still waiting 4 e result of my goals..it juz damn too long for me to wait n i am an impatient person... i want my result now.. so mayb how i planned my goals shud b changed n nt juz dependent on my long term goals.. okie so below is my short-term goals, in short i mean in this month, July- August goals...
My SHORT term goals:
- To finish my APEL submission
- To finish n go thru my cmsk presentation to get over wif it..
- To finish n go thru my leadership presentation to get over wif it also..
- To finish my dmpf qtvr, que points, layout n website..
- To finish my in3d legoman, bally n floursack (stupid "flower"-sack)
- To finsih SWO (Singapore Youth Winds Orchestra) wif e 'other' grp...
- To go thru EVERY DAMN PRESENTATION WEEK 16 n 17..
Okie finally n officially on my official blog, I am CRAZY!!!
Friday, July 18, 2008
ARGH!!
i dun noe y suddenly my blogpost change. I noe tat is sound weird bt i finally realize tat if i post tings tat happen to me todae is e nutting new cuz e readers r e same ppl. So nw my blog will dedicate to me n my views on stuff, pretty much aniting..okay, mayb once a while like todae post I will put up sum funny pic US..
nice rite..square head box stacking...
My scandal(S):
1st) 2nd)
tis is e recent pic.. startin out as cool funny bunch of cammies...
which den dian giving attitude to me, so i gav her a poke at e b****.( meant to b at her stomach)
So to spice tings up....
nice rite..square head box stacking...
not e person I wanted to take pic wif..lol..hehe:P
My scandal(S):
1st) 2nd)
In tis pic we wanted to use my body wif dian head..didn't match tat nicely though
Then caught Dian 'fatnah' sleeping in class..hehe
tis is me during boring lect n tutorials...will take more pic wen in class...lol
klah cya
Saturday, July 5, 2008
Wats wrong n wats rite...
Sumtime, actuali almost everytime I dun noe wats rite n wats wrong..all seems a blur now... wat I thot was rite was wrong n vice-versa..I have learned a lot in Leadership class.. I learn wat kind of person I am, wat to do wen u face a type of person n so on... I dun understand... but they also teach u to b a good leader which do e right thing at the right time.. But they dun teach u wat is e right thing n wen is e rite time. Actuali no one noes...
I recently watched tis show tat show a senstitive boy who kills his own girlfriend's autistic brother because he sees people in a negative way as in the sadness in people eyes. He cud not bring himself to see positive. All he noe is tat life is game tat God is playing wif satan to see if human can be good. I remember one very good sentence tat he sae abt gd n bad which was
"The worst part is knowing that there is goodness in people. Mostly it stays deep down and buried. Maybe we don't have God because we're scared of the bad stuff. Maybe we're really scared of the good stuff. Because if there's no God, well, that means it's inside of us and we could be good all the time if we wanted. So when we do bad things, it'd be because we want to or because we have to. Or maybe we just need the bad stuff to remind us what the good stuff is in the first place"
e sentence in red is e most memorable in tat show. Mayb its true. It's so simple yet we juz sae it difficult. Yes, we sometimes do bad tings to remind us what is e gd stuff. But I dun understand, tis boy wud see a couple kissing n not tink of aniting bt juz tat one dae tat couple wud end up old n fighting each other. In tat story he is juz e wae he is because he let himself tink tat wae n he cn't change cuz no one can really.. Any wae in e end he died cuz e kid who he killed sister's boyfriends was fed-up wif wat tat sensitive kid did to their life n ppl in e town, killed him to end e suffering.. I tink its better.. I hope if der was a real life person like him, I wud b scared..
I recently watched tis show tat show a senstitive boy who kills his own girlfriend's autistic brother because he sees people in a negative way as in the sadness in people eyes. He cud not bring himself to see positive. All he noe is tat life is game tat God is playing wif satan to see if human can be good. I remember one very good sentence tat he sae abt gd n bad which was
"The worst part is knowing that there is goodness in people. Mostly it stays deep down and buried. Maybe we don't have God because we're scared of the bad stuff. Maybe we're really scared of the good stuff. Because if there's no God, well, that means it's inside of us and we could be good all the time if we wanted. So when we do bad things, it'd be because we want to or because we have to. Or maybe we just need the bad stuff to remind us what the good stuff is in the first place"
e sentence in red is e most memorable in tat show. Mayb its true. It's so simple yet we juz sae it difficult. Yes, we sometimes do bad tings to remind us what is e gd stuff. But I dun understand, tis boy wud see a couple kissing n not tink of aniting bt juz tat one dae tat couple wud end up old n fighting each other. In tat story he is juz e wae he is because he let himself tink tat wae n he cn't change cuz no one can really.. Any wae in e end he died cuz e kid who he killed sister's boyfriends was fed-up wif wat tat sensitive kid did to their life n ppl in e town, killed him to end e suffering.. I tink its better.. I hope if der was a real life person like him, I wud b scared..
Monday, June 30, 2008
Choices
A few dae ago I was talkin abt life, den death.. next tat came to my mind is choices. Choices in life tat we hav to make. Hard ones n I almost sae easy one, bt ders no such ting as easy choice. All r hard. U noe y? Cuz its a life changing choice. No matter what, everything tat gt to do wif life, is a big and difficult ting to do. What else in life do u hav other den choices tat come wif it. It all started wen u make e choice to come out of u mom's womb n be borned. Then it wen u choose to stand up n walk as well as talk..U get my drift. Choices r everywhere in life. Left, right, up down.. It wil always be there. Even if u try 2 avoid it, sooner or ltr it's cmng back..Belief me.. It always does.
I dun noe wen it strted bt since I can rmb, I was always avoiding conflict, problems, dilemma and mostly choices. I always sum how make someone else choose for me..Which is always the wrong way to do it...Eventhough I know I need to make the decision myself, however I juz can't. I dun noe y bt I juz dun allow myself, cuz every choices I make I will make a big deal to it, eventhough I hate it. I will let myself be emotionally involve in every choices I make. I noe now tat I am the wae I am cuz I am an "S" literally...
Argh enough abt choices. I hate them and wish I never have to go thru' it again but like my Leadership teacher say "Life goes on..." I noe tat and I treasure every time I spent wif people I love.. but den..
1)I regrets alot of tings
2)I make mstakes
3)I hate myself for allowing
4)I _____(filled in the blank for me..sumting bad abt me)
5)life is unfair
bye....
I dun noe wen it strted bt since I can rmb, I was always avoiding conflict, problems, dilemma and mostly choices. I always sum how make someone else choose for me..Which is always the wrong way to do it...Eventhough I know I need to make the decision myself, however I juz can't. I dun noe y bt I juz dun allow myself, cuz every choices I make I will make a big deal to it, eventhough I hate it. I will let myself be emotionally involve in every choices I make. I noe now tat I am the wae I am cuz I am an "S" literally...
Argh enough abt choices. I hate them and wish I never have to go thru' it again but like my Leadership teacher say "Life goes on..." I noe tat and I treasure every time I spent wif people I love.. but den..
1)I regrets alot of tings
2)I make mstakes
3)I hate myself for allowing
4)I _____(filled in the blank for me..sumting bad abt me)
5)life is unfair
bye....
Friday, June 27, 2008
Death is arnd e corner or is it?
"I postpone death by living, by suffering, by error, by risking, by loving."
- Anais Nin, French write(1903-1977)
Actuali tis is wat life means. To die but before that you hav to go through it all, suffering, error(mistake), risk and mostly loving. The word dying can't nva b avoided as sooner or ltr u its gng to be in ur face. I'm veri sure u shud b askin urself why am I writing tis..The truth is tat I am scared tat one dae I won't wake up. I won't get to see my family, I won't be able to talk to them, salam them in the morning when they go to wrk, sae gdbye or gdnite and even sitting wif them during dinner at e dinner table and juz talk to them abt our daily live. Then, I won't be able to go school and see my gals, play wif them, joke wif them, sing wif them, work wif them and juz to be by their side. I won't be able to say sorry to my besties, for nt being there wif them, for nt calling them once a while to say "HI", for not being a bestie shud be. I am scared I won't be able to ask tat certain someone, "Why did it end?". I won't be able to juz stare at the sky and imagine
"Wat wud hav happen if it all turned out differenty"? I juz won't be able to do ani of tat one dae. Tats all it take. ONE DAMN DAY!!!
Normally I wud hav taken all tat for granted and nva do aniting to make it correct and keeping saying to myself "There's still tomorrow". I juz remember of tis song called "If tmr nva comes" by Ronan Keating. It so simple. I juz wanna tried to start a new dae and a new me and new life. I wanna live life on its edge and tinkin in mind tat if I hav one dae left. I wanna sae wat I wanna sae, do wat I wanna do, be wat I wanna be. Or atleast try to. I wanna live tis world wif no regrets.
NO REGRETS!!
- Anais Nin, French write(1903-1977)
Actuali tis is wat life means. To die but before that you hav to go through it all, suffering, error(mistake), risk and mostly loving. The word dying can't nva b avoided as sooner or ltr u its gng to be in ur face. I'm veri sure u shud b askin urself why am I writing tis..The truth is tat I am scared tat one dae I won't wake up. I won't get to see my family, I won't be able to talk to them, salam them in the morning when they go to wrk, sae gdbye or gdnite and even sitting wif them during dinner at e dinner table and juz talk to them abt our daily live. Then, I won't be able to go school and see my gals, play wif them, joke wif them, sing wif them, work wif them and juz to be by their side. I won't be able to say sorry to my besties, for nt being there wif them, for nt calling them once a while to say "HI", for not being a bestie shud be. I am scared I won't be able to ask tat certain someone, "Why did it end?". I won't be able to juz stare at the sky and imagine
"Wat wud hav happen if it all turned out differenty"? I juz won't be able to do ani of tat one dae. Tats all it take. ONE DAMN DAY!!!
Normally I wud hav taken all tat for granted and nva do aniting to make it correct and keeping saying to myself "There's still tomorrow". I juz remember of tis song called "If tmr nva comes" by Ronan Keating. It so simple. I juz wanna tried to start a new dae and a new me and new life. I wanna live life on its edge and tinkin in mind tat if I hav one dae left. I wanna sae wat I wanna sae, do wat I wanna do, be wat I wanna be. Or atleast try to. I wanna live tis world wif no regrets.
NO REGRETS!!
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